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They Followed Her
They followed her
I followed her
They followed her
For a different reason
She walked away from them
And she hated me
I was assumed to be apart
Of their teasing
They ran after her
As I watched
She tried to run
But she was caught
They threw her to the ground
And beat her
They raped her
While she fought
She was really hurt
When they hit her
She got really hurt
From the fall
She got hurt
When they raped her
There were too many of them
Four in all
I didn't do anything
Just stood there
It seemed like I
Didn't care
I just stood there
Without a word
I just stood there
And stared
They each took turns
Taking their turns
After awhile
They were finally done
What must have seemed
Like forever to her
Was all over
When they got up to run
Cold and damp
All alone
Crying there
Barely can see
Lying there
Raped and beaten
Left for dead
In an alley
I walked to her
She beaten and bruised
Her body
Completely naked
Eyes swollen
Tears falling
What remains of her clothes
Torn and blooded
So sincere
But far too late
So much I could have done
When I knew
But now she's hurt
And I hurt
And there's nothing
I can do
I picked her up
Tried to clean her up
Fix her
So no one knows
Cleaned the blood
Wiped away the tears
Dressed her
In my clothes
Straight to the hospital
Get her help
Trying hard
To make this right
Waited there
And cared so hard
Waiting there
All night
For her to be ok
And for her to be fine
Is the only thing
I want to see
Her friends came
Her family came
The cops came
To get me
Arrested for what
The other guys did
Arrested for
Rape and assault
I try to be angry
I want to be mad
But I cant
It was my fault
She wrote me a letter
Her asking why
And then telling me
I belong in hell
Well, I am
And will always be
In my response
From my jail cell
What they did
I didn't
But for what I didn't
I should pay
I'm so sorry then
I'm so sorry now
And will always be
Until my last day
I've had a crush on you
Filled more love than lust
Because of
Your beauty
I did not move
I did not stop them
Ashamed to say
I lived through them vicariously
I knew that was the closest
I'll ever get
Closest
I'll ever be
To ever seeing
You like that
Closest imagination
Of you with me
Now each day
I will always remember
Of those things
I didn't do
Now each day
I will always know
I hate me
Just like you
But I will always feel
And I will always wish
I will always
Try to give
Will try payback
Will try anything
But never expect
You to forgive
And despite the things
That I did
Or more importantly
Didn't do
I will always
And forever
Know that I
Love you
But I'm sorry
We both know
There is nothing
I can do anymore
They locked me up
And threw away the key
Convicted rapist
And murderer of four